`--WickedKarla_the fairy witch**

Saturday, October 28, 2006

A pleasant hello to everyone! =)

Just so you guys know, YES, I am still alive. =) Things have really been crazy for the past two months and I am proud to say that I do enjoy it that way. I've lost some friends and I gained new ones. I finally learned how to prioritize and manage my time. I am working hard to reach my goals.That's just how it is. People change, right? I'm not ashamed to say that I feel that in the short time that I've been trying to "alter" my life, I've learned a lot of things that are of importance. Things that you can't learn in school. This is REAL life, pare.

I am slowly learning the art of letting go (not just romantically) and moving on. And that what's meant for you will happen and if it doesn't, it just means that you didn't try hard enough. I believe that you should always look at things in an optimist's perspective and that angst and bitterness have no place in my heart. I refuse to have the luxury of time to bitch out on whatever things that don't go my way... These are just some of the few things that I've learned. Am I a late bloomer? ;o)

I think I'm growing up--and that's something I've tried to avoid for the past 21 years of my life. But I realized that growing up is inevitable. There are things in your life that will happen and after it does, you'll never be the same again.

If there is one thing for me that still holds true up to date, it would be that people don't always turn out the way that we expect them to be. We just have to accept them as they are because sometimes, it's just easier that way. If I were me a year ago, I'd probably say that it's either you live with them or bitch about it. But I'm not like that anymore. I try not to be. Haha! Hopefully, these changes will lead to a better Karla. (this is some cheezy shit man! hahah! But really, I mean it.)

When you get into a tight place and it seems that you can't go on, hold on--for that's just the place and time that the tide will turn. =)

Celebrate life and share the love. Life is beautiful, it's a shame to waste it by watching other people actually live it. There is certainly more to life than that.

<3

faiRy giRl 2:07 PM.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Just so everyone knows, I'm still alive (though not bitching :P). And very, very happy. One thing i learned today: if it's meant for you, it will happen.

<3

faiRy giRl 10:40 PM.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

nasa akin pa rin ang huling halakhak.

IN YOUR FACE, BEEYOTCH.

=)

faiRy giRl 2:23 PM.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Hi everyone! =) Just so you guys know, yes, I am still alive. UNfortunately. Hahahaha! I've been so busy the past few weeks. Busy doing nothing and at the same time busy doing everything. I've been going out a lot with friends--having too much fun. But hey, I'm not complaining! It's just that this week, when I have finally decided to take school seriously...I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with the fact that this time, I have to love what I'm doing and be totally dedicated to it. This entails a lot of sacrifice. Discipline, determination and dedication--wise words from Chico and Chubi. This time, I will NOT settle for mediocrity (sounds funny but totoo yan!)My time with family and friends will be limited because I have to study, study and study (as in literal na magsunog ng kilay). And that's sad but I'm hoping that someday, it will all be worth it.

God has been so good to me. Just when I was about to give up, everything as in EVERYTHING fell into place. Special mention: Vincci Flores! If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be where I am right now! You know what I mean! ;o) *hugs*

I went to Singapore, Malaysia (hello Ben!) and Indonesia over the weekend. It was a fun trip with Claude! We didn't get the chance to shop too much though, thanks to...nevermind.

I'm sorry if this post in incoherent...I'm just typing whatever comes to mind.

I'm a bit surprised at myself because I feel that I've matured a little. Basta. I'm not the same person anymore. And i think that that is DEFINITELY A GOOD THING! =) Will elaborate on it n my next post!

Thanks for reading guys! =)

faiRy giRl 9:00 PM.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

I was browsing through a friend's site in multiply and i saw a picture of a little girl who looked exactly like the little girl I'm so fond of during my Community service for NSTP. Sadly, I couldn't remember her name! I don't usually forget people but my memory failed me this time. I miss those kids so much! And honestly, even after our compulsary service, I still wanted to go to Hope Worldwide and continue teaching those kids.

It's so nice to play teacher sometimes! The kids' minds are like clean slates. You teach them things and they absorb each and every detail like they're sponges. You demonstrate to them how things should be done. They try to impress you. They suck up to you (i think this is the best part! hahah). They look forward to those little treats we give them when they behave. They try to be funny, showing off their toothless smiles and all! The honest and heart-felt prayers they say out loud before class starts is just sooo adorable! Gawd I miss these kids!

I wonder if they'd still remember me when one day, I just decide to walk in one of their classrooms. I bet they won't remember me anymore and that's sad but i'm still hoping they would.

These little kids have touched my life in their own little way. They made me realize how lucky I really am. They made me appreciate the innocence and uniqueness of each and everyone of them. And best of all, they brought out the "kid" in me.

Maybe I'll visit them one of these days...and see what has become of them. Go kids! Make me proud! =)

faiRy giRl 12:04 AM.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Almost all my friends are attached or at least have a certain someone to look forward to seeing at the end of the day. Me? I have noone (at least i'd like to think hehe). It's not that i'm complaining about it because honestly, I'm getting the hang of it. God knows I won't be single ALL my life. I'm not a man-hater. I'm not a lonely heart; not anti-relationships;not scared of commitments. I just let myself be.

I don't believe in getting into a relationship just for the sake of being in one. Honestly, my friends encompass what a boyfriend can do. That's how wonderful my set of friends are.I have friends who pressure me to date, who volunteer to set me up, who think that I have a lot of boys/choices but say I'm just being too choosy. All I can say is, I am not pressured! Not pressured at all!

Though I admit that at times, it can get lonely when all your friends go on dates and you are left alone. I don't wanna be a third wheel--that I know for sure.

As i've mentioned before, I am not one of those girls who are fortunate enough to let someone take a place in their heart, and realize that at the end of the day, the guy they're with treats them right. I must admit that I've had my heart stepped on a couple of times but that doesn't make me less of a person. In fact, those men/boys are a sorry excuse for a human being. Bitter much? Maybe! hehe. The point being: I am single, and I am single by choice.

I am happy. I do whatever I want to do without asking permission from anyone. I wear what I want to wear. I hog the remote control. I don't have to be made-up all the time. I can laugh my heart out without having to be embarrassed that my tonsils are showing. I can burp and then giggle about it. I am in control of my time. I don't play mind games (well, not yet). I don't get upset and complain that he's not "exerting much effort in the relationship." I don't rant about how he keeps on changing his plans. I don't have to win his attention over xbox/psp/ps2. I won't have to worry if my eyebrows aren't impeccably plucked and my toenails perfectly manicured. In short, I am content with how I live my life right now.

This may all sound selfish because it's all about me. Don't get me wrong. It's enjoyable to be in a relationship--to have someone to share your day's kwento with and all those other things. It is miss-able but all I'm saying is, I don't feel incomplete without it. Hence, unnecessary--well, maybe as of the moment.

If that one person comes along, then so be it. Or if he's already there let's play the game, shall we? But I won't look for you, I won't need you, I won't wait for you because yeah, I am just letting myself BE.

And why do you think men stall a lot when it comes to the big R? DUH. Coz of all the perks that come with it.

=)

faiRy giRl 11:25 AM.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

This is it. I am SO serious about this already and very, very determined. No kidding! I've been religiously going to the gym almost everyday! I know there's such a thing as "over-exercise" but I don't care! I will not lose that bet! hahaha! I put myself on a strict diet too! Yey! Aren't you guys proud? THIS IS IT NA TALAGA. PROMISE. =D

I saw Army at the gym today. It's so nice to see her because it's been such a long time since I last saw her. She actually convinced me to go boxing! And yes, after being inspired by THE Ben Cabigas, I wanna go to a boxing gym soon! I'll go pala tomorrow. Hehehehe

Gawd, all i can talk about is this gym/diet/bet thing. Sorry about that guys. It's my priority right now: to lose the weight. I actually lost a few lbs already but i still wanna lose more! I have a lot going on in my life (all good stuff) but I'm too lazy to make kwento. All I can say is that Jom's dad is sooo cool and that a double cello kebab is still better than a kebab sandwich. blech.

faiRy giRl 7:22 PM.

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